Somewhere deep inside I believe I can do anything.  That belief doesn’t always manifest itself in my day to day activities, but I really do believe it.  I’m naturally quite impulsive and also generally quite confident.  When you pair those things together, you have a bit of a strange combination.  When I watch doctor shows I imagine that I should go ahead and go to medical school so that I can fix all the people.  When I watch law & order type shows I imagine myself as a bad ass attorney sticking it to the bad guys.  Side note: I rarely imagine myself in law enforcement.  Mostly because I’m scared of the dark, but also because the idea of me carrying or shooting a gun is enough to make anyone who knows me shoot their drink straight out of their nose.  It really is just that hilarious.  But anyway.

I once tried for an entire hour to pick the lock of my mother-in-law’s front door because we had accidentally left her house key at my sister-in-law’s house and since I had watched seven straight seasons of Alias, I was the obvious choice to find a way in.  You know, because of all my super spy training.  In unrelated news, I wasn’t successful at picking the lock, but I did watch my husband laugh harder than I ever had before or ever have since.  The point is that I have a natural tendency to believe that nothing is beyond my reach – that I can do pretty much anything I want to.  If I’m being honest, I love that about myself.  I hope and pray that my four daughters will somehow pick that up from me.

The strange, and disappointing, thing about it, though, is that I rarely take that belief and actually try to make it reality.  Something happens to me somewhere between the believing and the doing that keeps me from the trying.  I can’t figure out what that is, but if I ever do I know I’ll be unstoppable.  

I believe that we are all made for so much more than we allow for ourselves.  So much more than we think we deserve or think we can achieve.  If I could follow through on that silly notion that I can do anything, I wonder if I would actually be able to do anything.